i love you
i can still see your smile
&i can still hear your voice calling my name like no one else did
now i can only feel the tears rolling down my face
i remember it like yesterday
u were always there...but
then you slowly drifted away
i regret that you are gone, but its outta my hands
i wish i could go back
back to when
u were my best friend
when there was a me it was a u
you were my idol
i just want to go back
back to those days
when it was nothing but good times ahead
wish things were different
but now
now im stuck here
thinking
thinking of when i got weak at the knees
five
when my heart felt ripped out of my chest
twenty-three
just when things were looking up u slipped away
ten
a lot of my hope and cares have been buried in that pink casket
lying right beside you
i no longer know anything...
i tried to hold myself together
but i lost it
i lost my faith
why
why would God take you away
if he could take you
he can take me too
so on a daily basis i contemplate
why
why go to school
why love
why live
i put on a smile and push you to the back of my head
but then all i need is one word for you to come back
if it only took one word you to actually be back
i want you to come back
i want to be able to look at your grandmother without sorrow in my eyes
and to have a conversation without having to think before speaking
i want your little brother to be out here to enjoy his life
i just want to have hope
&&i want to have faith
